Ezri's Ramblings

So I've been busy, and I'm not even in school! (Although I need to finish that application this week!!!)

Spent the last two weekends in Toronto, one for FanExpo and one to see FT Island at Downsview Park!!! It was awesome to see a KPop idol group in Canada! Very tiring weekend though, with taking the bus to Toronto Friday night, concert all day Saturday (they were the headliners for a charity concert for Japan) then leave really early Sunday morning to back it back to work that afternoon.

If anyone is curious I have videos up here: http://www.youtube.com/user/LadyEzri

Seriously, the videos do not do justice to how awesome they were in person and I'm so excited to see them live!!!

So summer job ended, I'm sad as I liked it, a lot of freedom to just do what needed to be done and left on my own. Although after two weeks of not having anything for me to do, my last two weeks was full of "we have all this stuff for you to do!" And not all of it got done before the end of my contract.

Then there is Wendy's still....the past three days has reminded me how much I hate that job, but sadly London has the worst employment rate right now and no one can find a job.

Over a year later since breaking my foot I'm still having issues and it sucks. Partly I think its because of how much walking I've been doing with my two jobs. I'm pretty much on my feet from 9am to 12a walking around (you never realize how big a hospital is till you have to spend two days walking around one just to visit all of the areas). I know when my doctor was explaining to me everything she specifically said given where I broke the bone (right at the base), it will be difficult to heal and take years to fully heal unlike my collar bone.Honestly, its more frustrating then when I tore my rotator cuff!

I've been trying to lose some weight this summer, having gained about 15lbs last summer and so far I have managed to lose about 10 but I would love to lose another 10, but its frustrating being unable to run or go biking as my foot hurts. I'm icing it twice a day now, when I go to bed and usually in the afternoon at some point. I hope to get back into skating this winter as a way to get more fit as well as for the pure reason I love skating, but its so frustrating not being able to do what you want to because you are in pain.

If I wasn't so busy I would book an appointment to see my doctor but that won't be until early September, and I won't have this second job, which may help.

Ugh, I hate it.

Never break your foot, it really sucks.

I should sleep...

I have a summer job working at the hospitals in my city (its an organization connecting all 5 hospitals in the city as well as a few medical centres). Even though I do not directly work with patients (I'm working in Network/Telecom), everyone has to get tested for TB. Now I hate needles, most three year old children are better when it comes to getting a needle than I am at 23. I went to Occupational Health last week to start my TB testing - its a two step process. One arm is done then a week later they do the other arm - but the woman did not seem to realize how bad I was with needles, despite me telling her. Needless to say she showed me the needle and I freaked out. Instead I went to my family doctor who is the only one I do not completely freak out for.

And it actually went well. She knows that I do not have allergies she had the nurse prepare the needle outside of the room so I didn't see it and I got it done no tears! I was happy.

However, next week I have to get my other arm done as well as have a rubella vaccine boost (German measles). Apparently in 1991 or so, they discovered that most people need two shots so being born before that I only ever got one.... both arms will be abused. TB in my left, rubella in my right...

It's official! I have graduated with a Bachelor's of Arts! Waiting for that last mark was the worst part for while I was pretty sure I passed, anxiety had me doubting it till the mark came in.

Overall, 73.2% average for the year, not as high as I would of liked but you know what? Its done, its over and I'm happy that I passed. Next up is to apply for master's programs and walk across the stage and get the most expensive piece of paper ever...

So, I kind-a had a nervous breakdown 3 weeks ago with family stuff, stress and school and yeah. Back to psychological services I went. The doctor I am seeing, right away recommended that I should have extensions but that has been a whole drama around that and getting it into place.

So far all of my profs have been really supportive. A lot seem to understand, being in 4th year and some of the pressures that come along with that, except for one. Her essay is due this week and I knew she wasn't going to take it well that I am requesting an extension so I wanted to make sure that the documentation was in place. She did this whole spiel on, "you can't pull this in the work force!" Which I understand, but at the same time, if this was the workforce I would be taking medical leave to deal with what's going on in life. My Mom did that, and its not that uncommon of a thing. The next prof I talked to was the complete opposite, "Well, you are doing a different sort of paper, and I have plenty of other marking to do, so no worries. Hand it in on the day of the exam." (Translates to a 3week extension, the other I asked for an extra week so the 14th).

But yeah...I've decided to take the Fall term off. The masters program I want to do has a January start date at UWO so I'm going to apply for that. I need the time off, there has been so much going on lately with life that I just need time.

Its just frustrating, so close to being done and so much crap. Ugh....

For Reading Week/My Sister's birthday, she and a friend are off to Las Vegas for the week. So Dad, myself and the two actually going all drove to Detroit to drop them off.


For one, it was interesting as we got pulled aside for secondary inspection as Jen (my sister's friend) is from South Korea and has a Korean passport (landed immigrant in Canada, but not a citizen yet). We knew this would happen, but it was somewhat amusing to listen to other explanations going on....like the guy who was going to pick up a car, that was a son, then his, then his son's car in his name...then something about the car having been left in the states for 3 months. His English wasn't the best, and the friend that was driving this guy to go get this car, I don't think his hearing was the best. But Jen got finger printed and her form and we were on our way.

Then the winter storm hit, the closer to Detroit we got the worse the weather got. Cars in the ditches left right and centre. No plough's anywhere...only a few salt trucks (actually, 9 in total all trip of 6 hours I was in the States, one actual snowplough). And I'm sorry, but once the snow reaches 5-10cm, salt does nothing if it can't hit the asphalt. Dad and I actually made a wrong turn, and got off I-94 as the sleet was so bad and freezing that we had issues seeing out the window. Both of us kept having to reach out and try and smack the windshield wipers to get the ice off, and even pulled off on the side a few times. Never a snowplough, never signs of a snowplough, resulting in a 6, almost 7 hour round trip from the Sarina boarder to the airport and back. Back in Canada, we are sitting at the boarder talking to the guard and there is already a plough! We back onto the highway proper there is two! Total, I saw 5, and all the roads but Nine Mile had signs of being ploughed recently....

Therefore, I feel Michigan needs to invest in some ploughs, or at least Detroit does, the roads were beyond insane. My Dad said he hasn't travelled in anything like that in years.

On a brighter note, I finally got to use my passport! It needs to be renewed in June....

EDIT: So apparently my sister sat on the plane for two hours (after being delayed two hours) before it was cancelled due to weather. Because the airline she was flying with doesn't have another flight to Vegas till Wednesday she's home and isn't going. Huge bummer for her, she and Jen were really excited to be going...and now I don't get a car for the week :(

Yup....that's my deck....actually you can't see the table at all any more. So tried of snow. School has been closed three days in a row now, and I now remember the downside of snow days. I never really got any school work done on them. Snow is supposed to end tomorrow, and we have a break Thursday before its supposed to start snowing again on Friday.

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My trip to the grocery store earlier...

Dear Right Side of my Body, especially Right Foot and Right Shoulder,


Please not being in pain, I'm trying to avoid painkillers these days after relying on them all summer (and possibly frying my brain in the process. Foot, I know its mostly because the large amount of walking I've been doing more so than usual and the cold, but its been 6 months now since I broke my foot, can't you give me a break? (2 more months till heels!)

And shoulder, what did I do to you? Was it my heavier than normal backpack with books, neglecting my stretches (which I fully admit I'm sorry, I am starting them again!) or you're telling me I should shoot again? Like why are you hurting even when I'm trying to play tennis? I'm not even using my right arm! It is also makes it difficult to find a comfortable position when you are in pain and get to sleep, so please stop. I really did not miss the feeling of someone ever stabbing an arrow deeper into my shoulder blade.

Thanks,

Ezri

I've merely been raped by school work for the past 2 months. Nothing overly interesting going on, beyond week after week of presentations, midterms and essays.

I picked up tennis as I figure I need a more active sport than archery to get back in shape, and I'm not taking $1000 worth of equipment on the most sketchy bus in London anyways. Its hard, but has been fun so far, I'm part of this club at school and whoever I play with that week is nice enough just to hit the ball back and forth with me. I've signed up for lessons in the New Year.

I almost have my Xmas shopping done, really just need to buy for my sister. Everyone else...I need to finish making.Mannequins will be mailed after my next pay-check (so after next week...as rent is due next week and that gets paid first). I have to finish some things for that anyways which involves hand sewing, but its almost done!

My room-mate entertains me, today she was confused when Extreme Makeover: Home Edition finished without finishing the house as it was a 2 part episode. She's also nearly constantly on the phone (and she wonders why she has a high phone bill...), but she wears a headset so I'll come down the stairs and she'll start talking and I'm always confused as to if she is talking to me, or herself.

I knew from the moment I walked outside to go to work and it was hailing it was not going to be my night.....at least I found my lidocaine for the burn on my hand from Sunday (which I got yelled at for not telling the manager but I did! Another crew remembers me saying something to him!)


....I'm going to sleep.

So I'm loving my new place. Loads of space, I feel I actually have room and don't mind if I actually spend time in my room. For one I don't wake up and walk into my desk.

The new roommate has been ok so far. She is totally into the whole I'm in university time to party! But I'm hoping this is because its O-Week and she's just moved out on her own. She is wanting to have a BBQ on Saturday that apparently keeps getting bigger and bigger. And this is NOT a party area, its mature students and new families mostly. I've already stated that if she doesn't know someone not to let them in. Also I really don't want to come home at 1am after work and have a house full of people and try to go to sleep... So hopefully I'll have a chance to talk to her before then...

Although something has gone on with the internet here with the dry line (fake number used to set it up) that my number couldn't be moved and is blocking AJ from setting up his own internet as someone no one knows set one up here. The real fun was the fact they also gave AJ access to my account and changed the passwords....lovely. So that finally was figured out, only took about 4 hours....

So things are settling and doing good. School starts late this year, usually I'd be going back tomorrow but we don't start till Monday instead. So more time to work. I'm actually work at a different store tomorrow which is kinda nerve racking for me. On the bright side, I get a cab ride home!

Needed to rant a little about Criminal Minds (my current TV obsession), and how it deals with mental disorders, mainly DID (Dissociative Identity Disorder). Under a cut because I don't know exactly where this is going, and it may hit close to home for some on my friend's list.

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I'm now off to get an ice cap....there is a tornado watch but no storms in the area, no rain even...

So I finally managed to get a proper fitting for bras...my size? 34G. One of the most impossible sizes to find and it gets so expensive as well...

Although proper bra looks and feels AWESOME!

So my Doctor's appointment back on Monday wasn't good... I've spent most of this month being kinda depressed. Can't really do much of anything as walking is painful and its annoying to get around and some what painful. Work annoys me, and its limited too. There has also been family drama that if it continues, no one will be talking to my Aunt Liz. It's honestly that bad...

I dunno, last summer was awesome. There was tons of hanging out with friends, family drama was at a minimum... This year there is drama, being broken and unable to do much and the friends I do want to hang out with are all away for the summer. Family drama is at an all time high with my Granddad's death, and its just a general funk I seem to be in.

My break apparently got worse before it started to heal (which is it starting to..), the break that I did is notorious for not healing properly and having complications. Thankfully the bone is healing, its just taking its sweet time. I've also been banned from wearing sandals and flats for the rest of the summer. I'm supposed to wear proper running shoes for the next couple of months. With my Raynaud's I wait all winter long to get to wear whatever shoes I want and I won't be able to now...

I know some here are sensitive to such drama so I'm kinda avoiding posting and commenting because of that....hopefully I get out of such a funk soon...

There was an earthquake in Ontario today! I didn't feel it :( I'm slightly disappointed. It seems down here it was really hit or miss about who felt it. Ben did act a little werid at the time but that was it. My Grandma certainly felt it, there is road work being done on her street and she thought there was some kinda of explosion the studio was moving around so much (there is no foundation to it). No one in my family was hurt and the houses seem fine. Grandma was going next door for tea 20min after it happened so no worries there.

And apparently there were some tornadoes in Ontario too, exciting day it seems. I can hear a storm coming in, I wish it would hurry, the humidity is killer. 23 but feels like 32 ouch. Just no tornadoes please though.... I do live on the third floor of an apartment building, I don't really have anywhere to take shelter.

Also, because of the G20 thing this weekend in Toronto, my cousin Hannah is stranded in London till at least Monday. The trains aren't running through Ottawa and it seems impossible to bus through it. We are guessing if you previously booked tickets they would still bus you, but not they aren't. So she can get from London to Oakville, but some how has to find a way to get from Oakville to Oshawa to get back on the train to Ottawa. And of course, because the Greyhound station is also near where the meetings are being held, they buses aren't running through Toronto either. If she were to bus it back it would be about a 23hour bus ride.... so yeah. If she wants to go home before then here only other real options are: someone drive her back or fly back. So she's likely staying till Monday...

Anyways heres to attempting to go to sleep....

Mostly, I'm bored. There is only so much time you can spend sitting around on a couch watching movies (because I have no cable). Last week I got bored enough to actually adventure out and get tea downtown (I was close to running out of green tea anyways...). And I really don't want to admit how much Tenimyu I've watched or how many times I've watched the same one, as I assure you its probably pretty bad (or how many times I've watched Taito Hashimoto do that flip at the end of Final Match Rikkai Second....). Though yesterday was fun, I sat on Amanda's couch and watched movies with her and Cassondra followed by the North Korea and Brazil football game.

Work goes, closing shifts kill me, mostly my heel and anckle as you really aren't supposed to stand or walk about in the cast as much as I have to for those shifts. But I need the money... at least I got my HST tax thingy in the mail the other day. $100 randomly! I aint going to complain...

I'm so hopping that in less then two weeks I get the all clear. I'm trying to walk on it at times and it doesn't hurt a whole lot. Moving the foot and my toes hurts more than actually standing on it, but at the same time I stand on my heel or the inside of my foot to protect the outside. But its doing so much better then two weeks ago. Mom gave me some excersies today to try and do with my foot to get it working again. Hopefully I can avoid physio.

So that is the status of things. I'm dreading the weekend and its only Wednesday...

Foot still broken and hurts.... I get to rotate between two different pain meds... it sucks.... 2 more weeks till doctor's appointment...

So I went to the doctor's on Tuesday, I got to actually see the xray too. Basically (because urgent care doctor wasn't great with telling me stuff) I'll be wearing the air cast whenever standing for at least 4 weeks. I have another set of xrays scheduled in about 3 weeks with a follow up doctor's appointment on the 28th to go over the xrays and see if I'll need to wear the boot for another 2 weeks. I'm hoping for the former...

Still just me and Cloud.... and because Cloud keeps trying to trip me and roll on my foot looking for attention I keep locking him in AJ's room. He said he was going to be back tomorrow...2 days ago. Really, I understand that he is doing work for his dad, but I wasn't even asked if I would look after Cloud. Hell, I wasn't even told that he was going to his dad's for that reason or how long he'd be gone for. And if my foot wasn't broken I wouldn't mind looking after the guy, but I'm worried that I'm either going to break the rest of my leg tripping over him or my foot will get worse as he tries to get attention.

Anyways tonight is my first attempt at working. I get to hog a stool as much as possible. Should be interesting...and Lisa said she'd try to make sure I have the same schedule for the next couple of weeks, as it gives me time to rest...and make sure there is someone to drive me home...

Was great till I broke my foot after falling down some stairs. I'll be ok.

But seriously...I'm glad this month is almost over....

Despite the other week's events putting me behind in preping for Anime North I think I'm actually all ready for the con, while getting there has been stressful (I just figured out today how I'm actually getting there for instance). I'll be busing to the con for the first time as no one I know has space for me in their car, and/or is going up Friday whereas I'm going Thursday. I dunno... a lot of things has made this a stressful con already (like half of the people in the hotel dropping out...) I'm just hoping for a stress-free weekend with friends at this point. Hopefully it will be.

For cosplays, I'm doing Rin from Inuyasha on Friday, Anna from Shaman King for most of Saturday and Ashley Graham from Resident Evil 4 for the Masquerade as well as Sunday. Friday and Sunday I'm in a group so similar cosplayers so I may be easier to spot...at least I think I have everyone's phone numbers should I need to find people anyways.

I'm really excited for my panels this year! Probably most excited for 'Proud to be a Nerd' after of course the good old 'How to get a Con GF/BF" Maybe I'll get lucky this year...having a condition of being local isn't too selective is it? My friend Steph just got engaged and a lot of other friends are in serious relationships that I'm starting to want one too... damn past making me scared.....

Matt is an asshole, nothing new there. Completely shafted me on grievance pay for my Granddad's death. I'm supposed to get 3 days pay for any work missed, I got one 3 hour shift! Its not like I wanted to suddenly leave as my Granddad was dying! Instead they reworte the schedual so I had Monday off, I wasn't supposed to work on Tuesday so they just gave me Wendesday. I took Thursday off as I just needed a day (that and my uniform had been sitting in the washer at home for a week...) but because I came into work to double check my weekend shifts and they were short I didn't get that day....Thanks Matt, thanks... Also he was only going to give me 12hours next week! I said I can't pay my rent this month if that is the case, and magically my hours went to 26. I really need something else, but no one is hiring.

AJ has been away at his dad's (I think) for a week. Cloud misses him, and won't leave me alone. Although we do seem to be getting better and not waking me up before 6am. Unless I closed and then he wakes me up at 4 because he lacks attention. Thats all he wants. I cleaned his box today as it was reaking, couldn't do a full change as there is no more litter and I don't have the money to buy stuff for Cloud. If it comes down to it, I won't let the poor guy starve or have a dirty box for too long, I'll just give AJ the reciets. For saying that he wasn't going to just leave me with the cat....it kinda feels like he has. I hope he gets him a sitter. Thursday morning to Sunday night is a long time for him to do without being fed.

Anyways I'll end my ranting...I should probably post more so I won't have such long posts when I do....